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Tuesday, August 05, 2008
我想过一件事
不是坏的事
一直对自己坚持
爱情的意思
像风没有理由
轻轻吹着走
谁爱谁没有
所谓的对与错
不管时间
说着我们在一起有多坎坷
我不敢去证实
爱你两个字
不是对自己矜持
也不是讽刺
别人都在说我其实很无知
这样的感情被认定很放肆
我很不服
我还在想着那件事
如果你已经不能控制
每天想我一次
如果你因为我而诚实
如果你看我的电影
听我爱的cd
如果你能带我一起旅行
如果你决定跟随感觉
为爱勇敢一次
如果你说我们有彼此
如果你会开始相信
这般恋爱心情
如果你能给我如果的事
我只要你一件如果的事
我会奋不顾身地去爱你
SaDneSs beFalLs aT|4:01 AM|
I've thought of something
not something bad
being stubborn
on what love really is
like the wind with no reasons
softly blowing along
there's no right or wrong on who's loving who
doesnt matter what time
says about us being together is wrong
i dont dare to prove it
loving you these two words
is not to comfort myself
nor an insult
actually everyone is saying i'm ignorant
this feeling is viewed as very irresponsible
i'm really not satisfied
i'm still thinking of that matter
if you are losing control
thinking of me everyday
if you're honest because of me
if you're watching my movies
listening to cds that i love
if you can take me on a vacation
if you've decided to follow your feelings
be brave for once for love
if you say we both have mutual feelings
if you can start to believe
this loving feeling
if you can give me an 'if'
i only want an 'if' from you
and i will love you unconditionally
SaDneSs beFalLs aT|3:53 AM|
Friday, July 18, 2008
Life is like a rollar coaster...this phase is so true...guess wat i cried again...lolx i am like a little kid...everytime something happen i jus cry...i tried to smile i tried to stop thinking...but the more i try the more it back fire...ytd nite i couldnt slp at all...my mind keep thinking of u and the recent thing that is happening to me...I really cannot take the pressure anymore...at first i though that there was someone in my life that understand me...but i guess i was wrong...the words u said really hurt me...even the person i like also broke my heart...my heart was shattered to pieces by the few words u said in front of me...even todae i couldnt concentrate on anything...things that people are saying to me wasnt absorbed...people giving me advice i also couldnt get it in...i really didnt have the strenght to concentrate on anything...everything that happen to me wasnt even enough to compare with the damage done to me by your words...this was how important you are to me in my life...i can forgo everything even myself jus to make u happy...everytime i c u down i couldnt help but feel down too...this was how much an impact u have made in my life...i dun blame u...coz i know one thing...and that is...I love u with all my heart...
SaDneSs beFalLs aT|1:22 AM|
Sunday, July 06, 2008
jus reach home...during my journey home i lost control of my emotions again...tears once again rolled down my cheek...i couldnt stop thinking of u...i miss u so much so much...ur image keep flashing through my mind...can someone help me plz...i really dunno wat is happening to me...
SaDneSs beFalLs aT|5:23 AM|
Monday, June 30, 2008
4.40am...been reading about you ever since jus now...dunno y...i couldnt stop my tears from rolling down my cheeks...at certain point of time...i really wish that i could be there for u...but it was jus impossible...in times to come i hope that i can be someone that u can rely on during good times and bad times...i dun wan to c u sad anymore...not even hear from anyone that u r sad...coz it really break my heart to know that u r sad...
few days back someone ask me this question "are u willing to giv up everything in order to succed in life?"...my reply was " I am only willing to giv up everything for the person i love"
Some will said that I am stupid...but i know everything is worth it...as long as it is for u...
SaDneSs beFalLs aT|4:51 AM|
I cant control my feelings anymore...Tears dropped down my cheek...i really dunno what i want anymore...I keep telling myself to forget bout you...i keep telling myself bad things bout u...but in the end i still love you with all my heart...i really cant get over u...no matter how hard i try...my mind jus keep thinking of u...every morning i wake up the first thing or person i think of is u...even before i slp i think of u...every single min i spend without u is like torturing me...sometimes i really feel that i am veri naive...thinking that if i jus run away from this problem i will get over u soon...but i realise i was wrong...the more i try to run away the more i keep thinking of u...i really hope to jus jump out of my window at this very moment...i really cannot take it anymore...i keep telling ppl that u happy i will be happy...but it seems that i am very wrong...whenever i see u walking away from me i jus feel like shouting out loud to u and telling u how much i love u and how much i wanna be with u...but i know this is impossible...
at this very moment i guess everyone is asleep...think it is best that i keep this thing to myself ba...coz even i myself also dunno wat i wan anymore...
SaDneSs beFalLs aT|2:51 AM|
Sunday, June 29, 2008
1. How long have you waited for someone you love?
--6 years??
2. What do you want to do right now?
--Go find the person I love.
3. If there's a miracle, what will you long for?
--To be with the person I love.
4. Do you hate your friends sometimes?
--Never.
5. Where do you wish to die?
--Somewhere far away from the person I love.
6. Do you believe in seeing a rainbow after a rain?
--Never.
7. What are the impossible things to do?
--Dunno.
8. Is there something you wished never happened?
--Me born in this world.
9. Are you happy with your life now?
--Nope.
10. What if your crush ask you out?
--Just go out lor.
11. What would you do when you feel bored?
--Play games.
12. What feeling do you hate most?
--Watching the person I love walking away.
13. If you will be separated from your love one (s) for a period of time, what will be some things you'd tell them?
--I miss them dearly.
14. What are you looking forward to this coming week?
--To be able to see her everyday.
SaDneSs beFalLs aT|3:17 AM|
Sunday, June 15, 2008
Recently my mood have been goin up and down again...dunno exactly wat is happening to me anymore...my world seem to revolve around u...so much that it seem to hav break through of my limit....i cant control my emotions anymore...at this point of time thinking of wat hav been happening make me feel veri sad...i am trying so hard but everything that i do jus seems to be wrong...i keep giving myself reason for things that have been happening here and there...i keep running away from my problem...but the more i try to run away the more it come bac to haunt me...the more i try to forget u the more ur image will appear in my mind...13th of june i dreamt of you...and that image of u have been in my mind ever since...since i was in secondary skool all i care about was jus myself...i myself was the pirority in myself...but u hav made a diff in me...u hav become the pirority in my life...i am willing to do anything to make u happy...do anything in order to keep u away from any dangers...in fact i am willing to risk my life in order to protect u...i know i will nvr be good enough for u...and i dun dare to ask anything from u too...but i jus hope that you will forever be happy...though i know that i will be sad but u being happy is all that ever matter to me...plz take care of urself...and watever happen i will always be there for u be it u notice it or not...i do not hope to c u cry...coz i know that if that day ever come...i will nvr be able to forgive myself...my only hope now is that u will nvr be sad ever again...be it the reason is me or not i jus wan to always c a real smile on ur face...coz this is the only thing that matter to me in my life...
SaDneSs beFalLs aT|5:08 AM|
Thursday, May 08, 2008
Stop thinking of her Derrick...she will nvr like you not to even think of being together with you...Derrick u r a loser in life...stop day dreaming and think of her...forget bout her...
She is so good...I know i will nvr be able to be together with her...but yet i jus cant stop thinking of her...todae i lost my phone...i wasnt sad that i lost my phone but i was sad that i lost the things inside my hp...the pictures...the messages...all the memories in it...i really miss the time when we were toking and chatting with each other...the time when u cheer me up when i was down...always there for me when i needed help the most and when i was at my lowest point...until now i keep holding on to the little glimpse of hope of being able to be together with u...though i know this is impossible...at this point of time all i hope for is tat u will be happy...nvr sad...and i will always be there for u when u nid me...be it 12am be it 3am jus a sms from u and i will definitly be there for u...
SaDneSs beFalLs aT|12:53 AM|
Monday, April 28, 2008
1.What age do you wish to get married? *After 25
2.What do you want most now? *MONEY!!
3.Who is the person you trust most? *Gan-Mei and Buddies
4.Do you think you have enough confidence? *Not really
5.Any dreams? *Have a car before 20!!
6.Do you believe in seeing a rainbow after the rain? *Not 100%
7.Do you believe in eternity love? *Definitly
8.What are you afraid to lose? *The person I love
9.If you meet someone that you love, would you confess to him/her? *Nope ( Sad case )
10.List out three good points of the person who tagged you. *Cute, Caring, Helpful
11.What are the requirements for my other half? *Understanding and Caring
12.Type of person you hate most *Backstabbers
13.Do you cherish every single one of your friends? *Who don't
14.Do you believe in god? *Nope
15.What do you think the most important thing in your life? *The person I like being happy!!
16.Do you find a need to have a boyfriend/girlfriend? *Maybe maybe not
17.What kind of friends do you hope to be in their eyes? *Helpful
18.If you have a chance, which part of your character would you like to change? *Attitude
19.What is your wish for now? *Able to make the person I love the happiest person on earth!!
20.Do you believe in FATE? *NOPE!!
SaDneSs beFalLs aT|12:29 AM|
Thursday, April 17, 2008
MY FACI FOR BIOLOGY MODULE SUX!!
SaDneSs beFalLs aT|9:29 AM|
Saturday, April 12, 2008
So todae was very unlike any other days...early morning and trouble started for me...i didnt feel like goin to skool so decided to drag my time...but then my dad n mum was nagging and pulling me out of my bed...i jus didnt wan to go skool...skool sux for me...so i decided to jus take my bag and walk out of the house...so i decided to 'tour' around singapore... from sengkang took 88 then change 161 to woodland then after tat from woodland take 966 to eunos which is my workplace there...i feel more relax when i am at my workplace...but still my mood wasnt veri good...but i tried to hide everything from the ppl around me...at ard night time had a short chat with may kee..grats to may kee on ur result...jiayou...u can do it de...dun worry so much =)...anw left my workplace at ard 12...then 1+ reach home...now all i wanna do is jus to tired myself out totally and jus fall aslp like tat...but anw i am goin out now...so this is where my post shall end...till next time...if there is...
SaDneSs beFalLs aT|2:40 AM|
Tuesday, March 25, 2008
So this post is for huifang LOLX...
So i told huifang the reason y i am in VE is coz of the following 3 points
1) Most obvious one and the most common one among all the VEs...and that is CAR...wanna come out with my dream cars ASAP so that I can drive my family out for breakfast lunch or dinner hahax...
2)Personal development...something that i can said that not all company can help in this area...In VE we learn alot of things...one of which is personal skills...even though i not in VE for veri long i can already c the difference in me...in terms of way i speak and handle things...most of the credit goes to 2 person who was there for me when i was at my lowest...
3)Is coz of the person i like...I hope that I will be able to achieve the above 2 points and be able to make a impression on the person i like...and alot more personal details LOLX...
SaDneSs beFalLs aT|1:56 AM|
Wednesday, March 19, 2008
it is 5.43am now in the morning...couldnt slp well...reach home at around 1+ then online till 2+ then decided to get some slp so as to end my miserable day...but guess wat i jus couldnt get to slp...flipping around on my bed till now...then decided tat i should jus online and blog and do some other things...it has been long since i had such an experience...dunno y...jus cant get to slp no matter how hard i try...but well who care...i guess no one will care also...how i wish i can end everything now...including my life...life seems so miserable to me nowadays...things are goin the wrong way...nth is goin right...be it work be it personal life...i jus hope for one thing to go right and i will be happy le...my memories are all filled with sad things...hardly any happy things...dun wanna tok bout it liao...make me more sian nia...
SaDneSs beFalLs aT|5:43 AM|
Saturday, February 09, 2008
CAN SOMEBODY PLZ TEACH ME HOW TO CONTROL MY EMOTIONS PLZ...I AM TRYING SO HARD TO NOT THINK ABOUT THINGS...BUT THIS IS DRIVING ME CRAZY...MY EMOTIONS IS SERIOUSLY OUT OF CONTROL...I AM LOSING MYSELF...CAN SOMEBODY PLZ SAVE ME...HOW I WISH I WAS NVR HERE...THEN NTH WOULD HAVE STARTED...I HATE THIS CRUEL WORLD FOR GIVING US EMOTIONS...I HATE MYSELF FOR LETTING MY EMOTIONS TAKE OVER ME...I HATE EVERY SINGLE THING...
SaDneSs beFalLs aT|12:10 AM|
Friday, February 01, 2008
Hahax..been veri veri long since i last blogged hahax...so though of blogging abit...so life has been pretty much the same...usual rountine school n home...but todae is the last day of skool...kinda gonna miss some of the ppl in my class hahax...the hunks and also the babes LOLX...anw todae finally receive the long awaited reply from chairman of my poly sci department...and i have receive the confirmation that i can apply for any O's sci for my poly entry requirement...so happy...which now mean that i am gonna apply for pure phy as my O's sci...to all my friend...plz help me hahax...pure phy got some chapt is i dunno de...mus help me ar...
so real life kinda fun...but my virtual life so kns lolx...WT main acc tio hack lolx..but after 2 days of thinking i finally though it through...acc tio hack then tio hack lor...can always start all over again de...start from 0 gold then earn back again...but anw i dun think i will have the time...my 10wks hols is here...mus go and find job and earn money to pay for my own O's...tat is my top pirorities...after that maybe will game at my free time...or maybe do a bit of reading up for my O's hehex...okie tat is all for now..will be back to blog soon hahax...
SaDneSs beFalLs aT|11:07 PM|
Tuesday, December 25, 2007
4.45am now....for some reason i cant get to sleep...dunno wat is wrong....my xmas is so wrong...i should be sleeping well but well i cant get to sleep...fell aslp at ard 2.30 then woke up at 4.30 and couldnt get back to slp...anw to all WT mates...i guess i wont be goin bac to WT for a period of time...dun ask me y....coz i jus dun feel like goin bac...things in WT arent goin smoothly for me...i try to stay out of trouble but yet i get accused of something that i totally nvr do...and i nvr even had the though of doing it....argh fuck it i dun care la....suddenly all the things that happen in the past started flashing through my mind....be it happy be it sad...was hoping to find someone to chat to but i guess so late liao everyone also aslp le....better not disturb anyone...so i guess i will tok to my blog ba....
SaDneSs beFalLs aT|4:45 AM|
